Author's Notes: Tis chapter is dedicated to my beta,
goingbacktosquareone who works miracles and demands many things form me to make
the story better and LadyChi who helps me write the kissing parts ... becasue
this *is* a kissing book ...
It
wasn’t terribly late when Harry arrived back in Gryffindor Tower. The common
room was still full of students. It was Friday night and even the youngest
students were still up: studying, playing Exploding Snap or listening to the
Wireless. He found Hermione sitting in a corner arm chair reading from a dusty,
old book and twisting locks of hair around her finger, making it stand more on
end than it usually did. As Harry made his way across the common room he
noticed a slight hush fall over its inhabitants and heard what he thought might
be a few sniggers, but he ignored them as he went straight to Hermione.
“Where’s Ginny?” he asked her quietly. Hermione looked up.
“Harry!” she exclaimed. “I didn’t think you’d be back until tomorrow.”
“I need to do something,” Harry said shortly. “Where’s Ginny?”
“She went up to bed.”
“Can you go and get her for me?” Harry asked.
“I can try,” Hermione said slowly. “But Harry, I’m not sure she’ll come down.”
“Please?”
“All right … but I did warn you …” Hermione sighed, closed her book and put it
on a nearby table before heading up to the girls’ dormitory. Harry stood and
watched the bottom of the staircase, waiting for Ginny to come down. He didn’t
notice Neville join him and started when the other man spoke softly.
“She got a Howler from Ron this evening.”
“Hermione did?”
“No.” Neville rolled his eyes. “Ginny.”
“Ginny?” Harry asked, startled. “What-” He was interrupted by muffled shouting
and a slamming door. Hermione appeared moments later, shaking her head.
“She yelled at me and slammed the door in my face,” she said.
“We heard that much, Hermione,” Neville said patiently.
“Why?” Harry asked plaintively.
“She blames me for the Howler,” Hermione admitted, shifting restlessly on the
bottom step.
“The Howler … the one from Ron?” Harry asked, wishing they’d get to the point.
“Yeah,” Neville explained. “It was pretty embarrassing.”
“Since when does Ron know how to make a Howler?” Harry asked, exasperated. “And
why would he send one to Ginny?”
“I wrote to Ron,” Hermione said quietly. “I told him what Brogan’s been going
about saying. I think Ron might have gotten the idea that Ginny believed him.”
Harry groaned.
“Professor Fiesche was not impressed,” Neville added.
“What’s he got to do with it?” Harry turned to Neville.
“Well, he was sort of standing nearby when Ginny tried to drench it to make it
stop,” Neville explained, failing to keep a straight face. Harry smiled
ruefully.
“Oh dear,” Harry murmured, smiling slightly. “His cat …?”
“Screeched and leapt off his head,” Hermione admitted with a grin. “It was
actually pretty funny.”
“The detention wasn’t though,” Neville sobered. “She’s threatened Ron’s manhood
multiple times since we came back from tea.”
“Fiesche gave her detention?”
“Oh yeah.” Neville nodded and adopted a supercilious air. “Miss Weasley, while
it may amuse your classmates to flaunt your love affairs and air your family’s
dirty laundry in the hallowed halls of Hogwarts, I am singularly
unimpressed. To add to this ridiculous display, you have tormented a
defenceless animal and … ruined my robes. I will see you in my office for
detention, tomorrow. I am sure I can find something for you to scrub, given
your penchant for splashing water about as if we were at a water park.”
“He made Snape’s detentions sound like a friendly afternoon tea,” Dean added.
Harry, who had been subject to more of Snape’s detentions than he cared to
remember, doubted that very much.
“What on earth did this Howler say?” Harry enquired, peering up the staircase,
willing Ginny to calm herself, change her mind and come down.
“First of all, Ron very loudly asked Ginny if she was quite sane,” Neville
began.
“Then he questioned her hearing, I think,” Dean broke in.
“And her brainpower,” added Gilbert who had sidled up to the group of older
students.
“He indicated dismemberment unless she came to her senses,” Seamus called out
gleefully. Harry turned to him and realised that everyone in the common room
had fallen silent and all were watching the action at the foot of the girls’
staircase.
“It’s possible he indicated he’d disown her if she messed you about,” Dean
added helpfully. Harry grimaced.
“Stupid git,” Harry muttered, turning his back on the rest of the common room.
“It arrived in the Entrance Hall just as we were all going in to eat,” Gilbert
piped up helpfully. “I’ve never seen one of those before. It yelled at
her!” Harry frowned at Gilbert’s exuberance.
“She was very embarrassed,” Hermione said quietly.
“I need to speak to her,” Harry said quietly.
“Apparently,” Hermione said shortly, “I am a poor messenger and she wants to
know why you don’t have the bollocks to show up yourself.” Harry groaned in
frustration.
“I can’t go up there, is she insane?”
“I HEARD THAT, POTTER!”
“What the-” Harry stopped abruptly as he saw the fleshy end of an Extendable
Ear resting on the bottom step. He grinned evilly and picked it up, careful not
to touch the steps. He was just about to speak directly into it when the other
end flew down towards him, slapping him on the face as it rolled itself back
up.
“Oh, that’s much better,” Hermione said approvingly, “definitely much easier to
deal with than a tangled mess of string. Ron said he was going to look at that.
Did you know Ron got one tangled around a couple of Chocolate Frogs once, and
by the time he got them loose they were just so annoyed they jumped away
before-”
“Hermione,” Harry said, without a great deal of patience, “I don’t much care
about the innovations of Weasley’s Wizard Wheezes right now. In fact I could
cheerfully strangle the lot of them!”
“Oh Harry, you don’t mean that-”
“Oh yes I do!” Harry exclaimed. “Have you heard George’s poetry?”
Hermione just raised an eyebrow at him and Harry sighed. “All right, I don’t
mean it … but I am running out of ideas here. To think … I assumed I could come
back and just talk to Ginny and yet Ron, the git, has to go and mess it all up
and put her in a really foul mood!”
“Well, if you are that desperate that you absolutely have to do this
now-”
“Yes, Hermione,” Harry interrupted, pacing back and forth at the foot of the
stairs and squeezing the Extendable Ear. “I absolutely have to do this now. Why
won’t she come down? I didn’t send her a Howler.”
“Okay then, maybe you just have to get up there-”.
“Yeah, why don’t you just go up and get her?” Gilbert interrupted, peering
around Harry and up the stairwell.
“Can’t,” Harry said shortly.
“What do you mean?” Gilbert asked. “Don’t you know which room she’s in? I can
go figure it out for you!” And before Harry could stop him Gilbert had ducked
under his arm and darted up the stairs.
Perhaps it was because he was smaller and lighter than Ron had been during
their fifth year, but Gilbert made it to the eighth step before the klaxon
wailed with an ear-splitting screech and the first year tumbled to the floor at
their feet as the steps slid together seamlessly. Seamus let out a loud guffaw
and Neville chuckled quietly as Gilbert sat up and rubbed the back of his head
gingerly.
“At least you learned it before fifth year.” Harry grinned at Gilbert and
extended a hand to help him up.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” Gilbert asked plaintively.
“You know now,” Harry said with a wry smile. “Okay, how am I going to get her
down here?”
“Well, does she like to slide?” Gilbert asked. “Cause maybe she’d like to just
slide down and-”
“Gilbert,” Harry interrupted, “you’re not helping.” He was startled as Ginny
suddenly shouted from upstairs.
“HARRY POTTER!”
“That doesn’t sound promising,” Harry muttered to Neville and Hermione slapped
him on the arm. Harry glared at Hermione before calling up the stairs. “IT
WASN’T ME!”
“WHY NOT?” Ginny yelled back. Harry raised his eyebrows at Hermione.
“Looks like she wants you to do the impossible, mate,” Dean said,
slapping him on the back and moving off. “Good luck!”
“Yeah, thanks a lot,” Harry grumbled, glowering at his retreating back. A door
slammed upstairs. Harry ran a hand through his hair haphazardly.
“She’s angry at Ron, not you,” Hermione said.
“Why is she yelling at me then?” Harry demanded. “What did you tell Ron
anyway?”
“I just said that Brogan insinuated we were … you know …” Hermione gestured
between the two of them helplessly. “And that Ginny sort of wasn’t really
talking to you …”
“This is getting me nowhere!” Harry exclaimed. “I need a way to get to Ginny.”
“Just leave it till the morning,” Neville said with a shrug.
“This can’t wait,” Harry said quietly. Neville nodded and clapped Harry on the
shoulder before he disappeared up the stairs to their dormitory. Harry turned
to Hermione. “All right then. What should I do now?”
“Why are you asking me?” she asked him indignantly.
“It’s your fault!” Harry hissed, aware that the occupants of the common room
were still listening in.
“It is not,” Hermione retorted hotly. “If you hadn’t been an utter git
none of this would have happened!” Harry didn’t know what to say. She was right
it was all his fault. He turned and thumped his head lightly on the wall in
frustration.
“Okay I’ve been in bigger scrapes than this before,” Harry said. Hermione
snorted.
“Really?” she asked sarcastically. Harry ignored her.
“We got out of those just fine, we can figure this one out,” Harry insisted.
“We?” asked Hermione sceptically. Harry arranged his features into the most
pathetic expression he could. Hermione sighed. “Well really … face-to-face
isn’t the only method of communication.”
“What does that mean?”
Before Hermione could answer, the portrait hole swung open and Professor
Crockwell bustled in, her hair spilling out of the old-fashioned night cap
perched on her head, her glasses askew on the tip of her nose.
“What’s going on?” she asked breathlessly, hurrying to a stop in front of Harry
and Hermione, still standing at the foot of the girl’s dormitory slide. “Miss
Granger, did I hear the stair alarm go off?”
“Erm, well-”
“Who was it?” Professor Crockwell demanded sharply. She eyed Harry warily and
he attempted to look as innocent as possible. He saw Seamus push Gilbert back
into his seat in front of the fireplace.
“Minor misunderstanding, accidentally touched the step,” Harry said. Professor
Crockwell narrowed her eyes at him.
“I think, Mr Potter, if you cannot keep to the rules …” she pursed her lips and
straightened her spectacles. “Young man, you are Head Boy and have been here
long enough to know better. I think perhaps … a detention tomorrow might help
you remember.”
“But-”
“It must be time for bed, all of you,” the professor said. Harry stared at her,
she was normally so mild-mannered and ineffectual. He shook his head wearily as
she turned around primly and began hurrying everyone to bed. He could almost
feel everyone glaring at him. Professor Crockwell turned back to Harry. “Given
that Professor Fiesche is already supervising a detention tomorrow I shall
inform him that you will be joining in.” Harry groaned inwardly as she turned
on her heel and left, barking at a group of first years on her way out.
“Well, now we know not to disturb her beauty sleep,” Seamus muttered as
he and Dean approached the stairs to the boys’ dormitory. Harry followed them
up, threw himself grumpily on his bed and kicked off his shoes. There were two
satisfying thuds as they hit the floor.
“Any luck, mate?” Neville asked him from his seat on his own bed. He was
surrounded by parchment, quills, several bottles of ink and a rather odd
collection of rose bushes. They were lopsided and a number of brightly coloured
purple blooms littered the floor.
“No luck,” sighed Harry moodily. “Crockwell came and ordered us all to bed.
It’ll probably have to wait till morning after all. At least she knew I was
trying … right?”
“Well … yeah …” Dean said slowly before trailing off. “But will she think you
tried hard enough?” Harry groaned and cursed violently.
“I need to talk to her,” he mumbled.
“Hermione have any ideas?” Neville inquired as he reached for one of the rose
bushes.
“Not really … Neville, what are you doing?” Harry asked.
“Luna likes that Muggle poetry we’ve been studying,” Neville admitted
sheepishly. “So I sometimes pick one to send to her.”
“Send her?” Seamus wrinkled his nose at Neville. “Don’t you see her all the
time? Why would you send her a poem?”
“Can’t see her late at night when she’s in Ravenclaw Tower and I’m in
Gryffindor Tower.” Neville shrugged as he pulled one of the rose bushes towards
him.
“So, you’re … sending her an owl?” Harry asked as Neville concentrated hard
waving his wand above the rose bush intently.
“Yeah,” Neville paused, “I can usually convince one of the owls from the Owlery
to fly up here. One of the Barn owls’ll be here soon.”
“So what are you doing with the rose bush?”
“Erm …” Neville blushed slightly. “Well, I’ve been working on getting a blue
rose. Mostly purple these days but I got a black one once. No idea how that
happened. This poem’s about roses and she’s a Ravenclaw so …”
Harry watched as Neville waved his wand in an intricate pattern and a rosebud
cycled quickly through several colours of the rainbow and settled on a bright,
emerald green. Donald Smythe, the boy in Ron’s old bed, snickered and Neville
glowered at him before sighing heavily.
“Well at least it matches your eyes,” Neville said ruefully to Harry. “Not sure
I want my girlfriend reminded of your eyes when reading my
letter.” Neville waved the wand over a second bush and produced a lovely red
rose which he scowled at.
“Well … at least it’s a Gryffindor colour … she can think of you,” Donald
suggested hopefully. Neville nodded, looking resigned and cut the rose,
wrapping it carefully in the parchment he’d been writing on. He eyed the green
rose with distaste.
“What am I going to do with this one?” he complained. “Know any girls who want
a green rose? What a stupid colour.”
“Audrey would think it was an insult,” Seamus sighed.
“Only want to know about one girl,” Harry grumbled, “and she is not in a
good mood.”
“Well … she’d probably like a rose that is the same colour as your eyes,” Dean
said slyly. He winked, “Could put her in a better mood.”
“Yes, but how am I supposed to give it to her?” Harry asked listlessly. “When I
see Ron …” He trailed off grumpily, cursing his best mate who had clearly
annoyed his sister beyond reason. Further thought was interrupted when a large,
brown barn owl swooped in through the open window, followed closely by a white
blur that flapped ungracefully around the room before alighting on the end of
Harry’s bed.
Liberty fluffed out her feathers before tucking her wings close to her body and
blinking slowly at Harry. She hopped towards her owner slowly. To Harry it
seemed almost tentative and he extended an arm to her
“Hey girl,” Harry murmured. “I haven’t got any owl treats.” Liberty hopped onto
his arm and up to his shoulder, nuzzling Harry’s cheek before taking off and
fluttering madly over to Neville.
“Hey Libby,” Neville said, producing an owl treat. Liberty seemed perfectly at
ease with Neville and pecked his ear affectionately before fluttering back over
to Harry.
“How’d she know you’d have one?” Harry asked, smoothing Liberty’s feathers as
she sat perched on his forearm.
“Oh, she comes in sometimes on the weekends,” Neville said absently as he tied
his red rose to the parchment scroll and beckoned to the barn owl.
“Why only on the weekends?”
“I guess she spends most of the week with Ginny or at the Burrow,” Neville
replied as he finished tying his missive to the leg of the barn owl. Harry
watched the powerful brown bird as it launched itself from the dormitory window
and into the night.
Harry realised he almost never spent the weekend at Hogwarts and he paid
virtually no attention to what Liberty was doing. He knew Ginny often used her
to send letters but he never wrote to anyone and hadn’t been to the Owlery all
year. All the correspondence he’d been attempting to sort out for the
Children’s Home had been delivered by stuck-up Ministry owls and he hadn’t sent
any of it back yet because he hadn’t found any staff.
Hedwig had been a regular sight in Gryffindor Tower and Harry had kept bags of
owl treats for her in his bedside table but he hadn’t bought any for Liberty
since he’d been at Hogwarts. Harry stroked the owl thoughtfully. If he’d
ignored Hedwig like this she wouldn’t have spoken to him until Christmas, but
Liberty had no such issues. Harry watched her as she jumped on his bed, her
wings fluttering, before perching on his leg precariously. Hedwig would have
been appalled, Harry decided with a slight smile. Hedwig had been a very dignified
owl but Liberty definitely had a more forgiving nature and a mischievous air.
“Honestly, how hard is it to make a rose go blue?” Neville muttered as he
gathered up his parchment and quills and dropped them into his trunk. Harry
looked up to find Neville glaring at the green rose which he had cut before
tidying the rose bushes away into one corner of the room. At that moment
Liberty hooted softly and stuck out her leg.
“Oh, you’re brilliant!” Harry exclaimed and began to rummage in his trunk for a
piece of string. He sat up clutching a ball of rough, brown twine to find
Neville smiling at him and holding out a length of red ribbon.
“It’ll look better,” was all Neville said as Harry took the ribbon gratefully
and tied the green rose to Liberty’s leg. Liberty spread her wings and soared
gracefully out of the window. Harry and Neville leaned out of the window but it
was fruitless because the white owl was soon lost to sight around the curve of
the Tower.
“Think it’ll work?” Neville asked Harry pensively.
“No idea,” Harry confessed. “I’ve never sent a girl flowers before. Do you
think she’ll like it? Oh no, I didn’t write a note! Do you think she’ll know
it’s from me?”
“I think so,” Neville smiled.
“What if she’s so mad she refuses to let Liberty in?”
“No worries there mate.” Neville indicated Liberty swooping back to their
window, her leg now free of the rose. They backed up to let her alight on the
window sill. She hooted softly but carried no note.
“What does that mean?” Harry asked in frustration. “She didn’t send a note
back?”
“Give her the night to think about it,” Neville said softly, closing the window
and turning to his bed. Harry stuck his arm out for Liberty who eyed him
carefully before hopping onto Harry’s forearm and up to his shoulder.
Liberty hooted softly and hopped up and down on his shoulder merrily, nearly
falling off. The owl grabbed at his shoulder and Harry hissed in pain, twisting
away as the talons dragged across his scar tissue. Agitated, Liberty fluttered
up onto the top of his four-poster.
Liberty gazed at Harry for a moment before giving a soft hoot and tucking her
head under her wing. Harry climbed into bed thoughtfully and spent a fitful
night dreaming of Ginny screaming at him from a Howler while Ron laughed
maniacally.
******************
Harry dragged himself down to the Great Hall for breakfast feeling very
out-of-sorts. He’d had a dreadful night’s sleep, his clothes felt like hot
knives as they dragged across his shoulder where Liberty had irritated the scar
tissue and he didn’t know what to do about Ginny. He sat gloomily at the
Gryffindor table and reached absently for the bacon. Students drifted into the
Hall as Harry ate breakfast, the toast tasted like sawdust and the pumpkin
juice slipped down his throat without flavour. He was jolted from his reverie
when Professor Fiesche swept up to him and swished his elegant green robes
impatiently. Harry looked up at the professor.
“I understand that you will be joining Miss Weasley in detention this morning?”
the man sniffed. Harry nodded mutely, afraid that if he opened his mouth he’d
laugh himself silly at the way the man’s cat was perched on his head, its tail
flicking idly above his left shoulder. “If Miss Weasley bothers to show up you
will both report to Professor Slughorn directly after breakfast. I understand
he has some cleaning for you.” The man sneered in a passable impression of
Snape as he swept away.
“Every time I see that man I want to pull his cat’s tail,” Seamus said as he
sat heavily in the seat next to Harry and reached for the toast.
“What kind of daft idiot wears a cat as a hat anyway?” Dean added.
“Does anyone know why he does it?” Harry asked as he stabbed at his scrambled
eggs viciously. Seamus shook his head vigorously.
“You’d think,” Dean said, “that an Auror would have very little success at all
the dark wizard fighting with a cat sitting on his head.”
“Maybe it’s his secret weapon,” said Neville, who had joined them. “It’s a
secret, crime-fighting cat with super, magical powers.” Dean sniggered.
“Well, it’s positively awful,” Hermione said as she sat down opposite Harry.
“That poor cat … I mean would you like it if you had to live on someone’s head
all the time?”
“You should do something about that, Hermione,” Seamus said seriously.
“Do you think other students might help?” Hermione asked him. Seamus nodded.
“Oh yes,” Dean said airily. “They’d be glad to.”
“Well, then you can help me,” Hermione said with a smug smile.
“Oh no ... no … got NEWTS you see,” Dean said. “Terribly important you know.”
Hermione rolled her eyes at them.
“Ordinarily I would care about the cat but I’m much too busy preparing, um …
well I have something I’m doing anyway,” Hermione said. Harry looked up and
eyed her carefully. Her face was a little flushed and she was eating her
breakfast with more care than was really warranted for a slice of toast and
marmalade.
“What are you up to Hermione?” Harry asked.
“Nothing.”
“Sure,” answered Harry sarcastically.
“Not up to anything illegal,” Neville said under his breath. Seamus snorted.
“Or anything that involves fun,” Dean added. Hermione glared at him.
“I know how to have fun,” she said defensively. Dean grinned at her and raised
an eyebrow suggestively.
“You can’t hit on her,” Seamus said giving Dean a shove. “Ron would have your
guts for garters.” Hermione turned her glare on Seamus who grinned back at her,
unabashed. Dean rolled his eyes.
“I wasn’t hitting on her-”
“Practicing then?” Neville asked slyly. “Who’s your next conquest? That tall
blonde in Ravenclaw … what’s her name … Pamela?”
“Shirley,” answered Seamus without missing a beat. “He is totally going after
Shirley Templeton.”
“Who calls their kid Shirley Templeton?”
“Mr and Mrs Templeton?”
As his friends bantered back and forth Harry tried to pay attention, but he
kept waiting for Ginny, his eyes on the doors to the Great Hall.
“She wasn’t there when I got up,” Hermione supplied quietly. Harry turned to
her.
“Who?” he asked casually, taking a sip of his juice.
“Ginny’s down at the Quidditch pitch,” Neville said. “Saw her leaving in her
practice gear when I came down this morning. She’s probably trying to get
practice in before this detention.”
“Well, breakfast is nearly over,” Hermione said crisply. “She’ll miss breakfast
if she’s not careful. Honestly, Quidditch is hardly more important than
breakfast. She hasn’t been eating properly at all and she’s going to make
herself sick if she keeps this up.”
“Quidditch is really important to her,” Harry said defensively. “It’s what she
wants to do for a career.”
“It’s just a game-”
“Hey!” Dean interrupted. “It is not just a game! That’s like saying football is
just a game.”
“And what do you think, Harry?” Seamus asked. “About Ginny having a career?”
Harry just stared at Seamus in confusion.
“I think it’s a great career,” he said slowly. “Why does it matter what I think
about Ginny having a career? I mean they give you career advice for a reason,
don’t they? You have to plan for your future and all that. Not that I gave that
much thought at the time.” He finished wryly and Neville laughed.
“Yeah, but if Ginny’s off havin’ a career, who’s going to look after you?”
Seamus winked suggestively.
“I can look after myself,” said Harry, ignoring the innuendo.
“Oh, there are things you can’t do for yourself.” Seamus grinned.
“Well I can get my House Elf to look after me then,” Harry said sarcastically,
rolling his eyes. Hermione looked at him reproachfully.
“Oh, I don’t mean like that.” Seamus leered suggestively. Harry launched
a piece of toast at his head.
“Honestly,” Harry said, “leaving your dirty thoughts alone, I think it’s great
that Ginny’s thinking about her future and planning ahead and all that. I know
it’s got its risks but she’s got a real chance and she should take it. She has
my full support.”
“Um, Harry,” Hermione began tentatively. Harry turned to her and she continued
in a rush. “Did you say that to Ginny?”
“Say what?”
“That Quidditch was great because she was planning for her future,” Hermione
answered, playing idly with her fork.
“Yeah …”
“Do you think … maybe … that she um …”
“Spit it out, Hermione,” Harry said wearily, tired of the games and never
knowing what it was he’d done wrong.
“She might have thought, on top of everything Brogan insinuated …” Hermione
trailed off. Harry just looked at her. He tried to follow her train of thought,
trying to think what he’d said; and what Ginny might have thought he’d meant.
Harry had pulled away from her physically and he knew that. Fixing it had
seemed easy enough, but if he’d made some other stupid mistake … Harry did
think it was brilliant that Ginny wanted to be a Quidditch player. While he
certainly didn’t want the fame and all that came with it Ginny would love it.
It wasn’t that she was an attention seeker but she did enjoy people noticing
her. Harry supposed it came down to being the youngest in a large family and
wanting to be noticed from something she could do rather than by virtue of
being the girl. She certainly knew what to do with attention and she did enjoy
it but, like Harry, she’d rather get it for something she’d achieved than by
something that had simply happened to her.
In their future he saw her as a Quidditch player and he saw himself getting all
the perks and benefits of Quidditch without having to be on the pitch and in
the papers. He could see them practicing together at their house. It would be
on a pitch like the one at the Burrow, only with real hoops. It would be a
place where he and Ron would convince Ginny and George to play two-a-side
Quidditch. Where he and Charlie would challenge each other to catch the Snitch
first and where he and Ginny would teach their children to fly. He saw himself
watching Quidditch games with Ron and travelling Europe, seeing the sights and
watching Ginny play Quidditch while Hermione read a book.
Wasn’t this what he’d defeated Voldemort for? The chance to be whatever they
wanted? The opportunity to set themselves up with a future. The chance to see
the world, to follow their dreams. How could he have said anything wrong by
saying Ginny should pursue her dreams?
“What did she think, Hermione?” Harry sighed wearily. “She has a problem with
me saying she should follow her dreams and plan for her future?”
“If it sounded like that, yes,” Hermione said cryptically. Harry narrowed his
eyes at her. Hermione sighed. “If it sounded like you were expecting her to go
off and plan her own life … without you.”
“So because I encourage her to plan her own life and future she assumes I want
her to plan it without me?” Harry felt like he was swimming in an endless sea
without a life raft and his arms were getting tired. He was bound to sink
beneath the surface any minute.
“That’s what it probably sounded like.” Hermione shrugged. Harry groaned and
thumped his head lightly on the table, making the plates and goblets rattle
ominously.
“Just brilliant,” he muttered. Scowling, Harry collected some toast in a napkin
just before the plates vanished from the tables in the Great Hall and stood up.
He had absolutely no idea how to fix things but he figured a breakfast peace
offering was a good start.
Harry almost made it to the great oak doors that led outside before Professor
Slughorn collared him only inches from his goal.
“I understand you will be joining me today, m’boy?” the professor said
jovially. He lowered his voice and winked exaggeratedly at Harry. “You and
Miss Weasley as I understand it? Professor Fiesche mentioned he was ah … too
busy, one might say, to supervise. I thought to myself that not only is it an
absolute travesty that you are expected to serve a detention, but you
might like some, er … time alone.” Professor Slughorn gazed at Harry
expectantly.
“Oh, um, thanks, professor,” Harry managed.
“I really don’t think these new professors know what’s what, you know,”
Slughorn continued as he grasped Harry’s right arm and led him down to the
dungeons. “I volunteered at once to supervise of course. You need people around
you that understand you, m’boy. People who don’t expect you to do the same sort
of drudgery as the rest of us mere mortals.”
They had arrived at the dungeons and the packet of toast in Harry’s hand was
getting a little soggy. He noticed with a start that Ginny was leaning against
the wall outside Slughorn’s classroom. She was still dressed in her Quidditch
practice robes and her windswept hair curled around her face where it had
escaped the plait it was tied into. The cold air had given her cheeks a rosy
glow but under the colour on her cheeks her eyes were a little sunken and she
looked rather pale.
Ginny had her eyes closed and her head was resting on the wall behind her,
exposing her throat and Harry had to fight an almost overwhelming urge lean
down and suck on it and feel her pulse beat in his mouth. Her eyes snapped open
and she jerked her head forward suddenly, staring directly at Harry before she
looked away, the red heat of embarrassment creeping up her neck. Harry gazed at
her while Slughorn unlocked the door to his classroom. Ginny looked fixedly at
the floor and scurried into the classroom as soon as the door was open far
enough for her to squeeze through.
“Well, here we are,” Slughorn was saying. Harry listened with half an ear, his
eyes still on Ginny and the toast in his hand leaving trails of slippery butter
on his fingers as it soaked through the napkin. Ginny had ducked her head
forward, as if she could hide, but with her hair tied back, there was no way
for her to cover her face, and she only succeeded in looking more alluring to
Harry.
Slughorn kept chattering something about heroes and suitable treatment but
Harry paid him no attention. He was focused on Ginny and the way she shifted
from one foot to the other and pulled on the end of her plait. Harry could see
the tension in her neck and the way she stiffened when he leaned closer to her.
When Slughorn said something vaguely stirring about gratitude and the love
people had for Harry, Ginny’s eyes met his briefly before she turned away. A
searing blush crept up the back of her neck and Harry smiled as the tips of her
ears went crimson like Ron’s did when he was embarrassed.
Oh, she knew he was watching her, Harry was sure of that.
He smiled and leaned casually against one of the desks. It was the weekend and
he was dressed in Muggle attire, something which he knew Ginny found very
attractive. She’d once confessed that she thought robes left a little too much
to the imagination and he’d let her buy him more than one outfit before they
had returned to Hogwarts. Ginny appeared to keep her attention on Slughorn but
Harry noticed the way her hands still fluttered nervously with the ends of her
plait and the way her eyes strayed to where his feet stuck out into the aisle
between the desks, one hooked over the top of the other.
He took the moment to admire the way her practice robes hung on her slim frame,
her tiny feet encased in the boots that went with the Quidditch uniform and the
warm jersey underneath, that clung to her curves enticingly. A Gryffindor scarf
was hanging out of her pocket, the end trailing on the floor. Ginny got
flustered when she tried to shove her hands in her pocket and succeeded only in
pulling the scarf out. She bent to retrieve it and when she stood up she had
shifted a little so that he could see her profile and he watched avidly as her
chest rose and fell shallowly. His mind drifted to another time and another
place when he’d felt those curves under his hands and her hands had trailed
fire down his back as her legs curled around his. As he watched her he wondered
dimly if she had deliberately turned the tables on him and was now trying to
get his attention the way he had been trying to get hers.
If she was, it was working.
“So, we just need to … um,” Ginny said, sounding a little breathless, “clean
this erm, cauldron here?” Harry forced his mind back to the present, leaving
Ginny’s warm, inviting curves and her soft skin in his memories and valiantly
trying to focus on the present.
“Yes, best to stay a little while longer though,” Slughorn added. “Check things
over, you understand. Make um … sure everything is … accomplished.” He winked
exaggeratedly at Harry as he slipped out the door, closing it with a soft
click.
“Well, not exactly the detention I was expecting,” Ginny muttered, rolling up
her sleeves and eyeing the cauldron distastefully. “Don’t worry, I’ll do it.
I’m the one who deserves the detention, stupid Ron, making me lose my stupid
temper, ruddy git.”
“How do you know I didn’t do something to earn this detention?” Harry asked
softly. “Maybe that’s my filthy cauldron you’re cleaning there.”
“Oh, come on, your detention is totally fake,” Ginny said, rolling her eyes
expressively as she stalked to a nearby shelf and began rummaging about in the
jars and bottles stored there. Harry took the opportunity to quickly Scourgify
the cauldron.
“Fake?” Harry asked, padding up behind her. “What on earth would make you say
that this is a fake detention?” Ginny huffed loudly and turned around a jar of
cleaning paste in her hands.
“Yours is a fake detention because …” She stopped and turned pink. Harry
suspected it was the way he was standing mere inches from her, so close his
breath was making the tendrils of hair on her forehead dance.
“I cleaned the cauldron,” Harry said quietly, “and I brought you some
breakfast.” He held up the greasy, squashed toast and smiled wryly.
“Thanks,” Ginny said softly. She didn’t take the toast and her eyes searched
his intently.
“I’m really sorry,” Harry said, still clutching the toast between them like a
ridiculous lifeline.
“I got your rose.”
“Neville made it,” Harry confessed, squeezing the toast reflexively.
“It matched your eyes.”
“He didn’t want to give it to Luna.” Harry ignored the butter slowly slipping
between his fingers as he dropped his eyes to her lips.
“I think you’ve destroyed my breakfast,” Ginny said with a giggle. Harry looked
down, startled, at the mangled lump of toast, still wrapped in a butter-spotted
napkin.
“That’s me,” sighed Harry, “destroyer of toast and relationships. I know I
messed up badly and if you don’t want to go back to how we were that’s okay but
I miss you and I want you back and I love you and-” He heard the jar of
cleaning paste thud onto a nearby desk and then her hands were at his collar,
pulling him down, her gaze fastened unwaveringly on his mouth.
Harry dropped the toast as her lips met his and he hesitated only seconds
before he groaned and wound his arms around her waist. He pulled her close,
sliding one hand up to her neck and using the other to clutch her to him. He
shivered as her nimble fingers danced upwards, one hand sliding up the right
side of his neck to caress his scalp and the other slipping slowly down to rest
over his rapidly beating heart.
He hadn’t noticed when she’d done it, but Ginny had managed to entice his lips
apart and slip her tongue inside. Harry clutched her tighter when he felt her
tentatively stroke his tongue with her own. Up until then she had been in
control but this was like a switch had been flipped and Harry pressed her back
against the shelves, winding his hand into her hair so that he could pull her
head back and press his own tongue into her mouth. When she moaned he thought
he might lose all of his senses and he tore his lips away from hers. Ginny
whimpered and slid her right hand up around his neck and across the scars
there, to pull his head back down to hers.
Harry forced himself not to shrink from her touch. He was breathing shallowly,
his eyes closed, his mouth still tender. Ginny pressed a chaste kiss to his
swollen lips before she moved to press another to his jaw … and another to the
sensitive spot behind his ear. Harry kept completely still as she moved lower
to press feather light kisses on his neck, lingering on the scars that snaked
their way down under his collar. His fingers tightened on her waist as she
sucked gently on his neck and he struggled to hold himself upright. He turned
his head to find her lips, desperately wanting to taste her again.
“Ginny,” he breathed against her lips before he kissed her slowly and he felt
her body press closer to his, her hand fisted his jumper as she clung to him;
Harry knew that they were holding each other up now. A tiny hand trailed down
to his back pocket and slipped inside, urging his hips towards hers. He spun
them around, backing Ginny into the Potions bench and pressing against her
urgently. Her leg curved around his as he slid his hands under her robes and
her jersey, fumbling to find the soft, silky skin underneath. He buried his
face in the sweet curve where her shoulder met her neck, breathing in her scent
and kissing her collarbone softly before pulling back to look at her.
His breathing matched hers, ragged and out of control, and her chest heaved as
she opened her eyes slowly to gaze at him. She was intoxicating, breathtaking,
spellbinding. He wanted to give in, to forget the rest of the world, to forget their
disagreements and make love to her.
Slowly he let go of her waist and withdrew his fingers from her hair. He rested
his shaking hands on the bench on either side of her, unwilling to pull his
hips away from hers. He groaned as she shifted under him restlessly and shook
his head slightly.
“Not here,” he whispered, bending to kiss her neck softly. “Not until we talk.”
“So talk,” Ginny said. Harry looked up at her, meeting her gaze for the first
time since she’d started kissing him. He could tell that in this moment she
would give him whatever he wanted. He raised one hand and caressed her cheek
softly. She held his gaze resolutely.
“Not here,” he repeated. “Not yet. I need … I need to apologise and I need to
tell you something.” Ginny searched his face before looking away, staring at
the floor.
“If … if you don’t want to any more, just tell me, Harry,” she sighed. “Don’t
drag things out.”
“Don’t want to what?”
“Be with me,” Ginny whispered.
“I am with you,” Harry said, bending to press a kiss to her neck.
“Where have you been then?” Ginny asked, her voice harsh. Harry stilled,
breathing in the scent of her hair, his lips hovering above her skin. “If
you’ve been with me, why have I been all alone?”
“I’m sorry,” Harry said. “I just … I need to …” He trailed off, looking into
her brown eyes. They were full of confusion and hurt.
“So, like I said,” Ginny said, breaking the silence, “if you don’t want me
anymore, if you don’t want to sleep with me anymore, don’t drag this out
or pretend. Just tell me-”
“No!” Harry exclaimed. “No, I want to. What do you think I was just doing?”
“I don’t know,” Ginny whispered. “You haven’t kissed me like that … touched me
like that … for ages. You haven’t let me touch you the way I wanted to.”
“I know,” Harry replied, slipping his arms around Ginny’s waist. “I’m sorry, I
… let me explain.” It sounded hollow and meaningless, even to him.
“I missed you so much,” Ginny said. “I was angry with you. It was your
fault Ron sent me a Howler. But then you touched me and kissed me and I forgot
how to be angry with you.”
“I just …” Harry buried his face in her hair and whispered in her ear. “Please,
Ginny. Come with me so I can explain.”
“What about Slughorn? What about detention?” Ginny protested.
“I don’t think being with the Head Boy counts as skipping detention,” Harry
said cheekily.
“The Head Boy is in detention,” Ginny said, rolling her eyes.
“Ah, but my detention was clearly … fake.” Harry grinned at her. “Please, come
with me?”
She eyed him for a moment before nodding jerkily as Harry released a breath he
didn’t realise he was holding. He pulled away from her reluctantly and
straightened her robes, pressing a lingering kiss to her lips before sliding
one hand down her arm and grasping her fingers in his own. He led her out of
the Potions classroom.
“Where are we going?”
“My room,” Harry said. “I, um … I need your help with something. I should have
asked for it before now, but I didn’t, because … well because I’m an idiot and
a stupid git.”
“Is it about the Children’s Home?” Ginny asked as they climbed the staircases
to Gryffindor Tower. By an unspoken agreement they both avoided the shortcut
that would lead them past Gryffindor’s room.
“No,” answered Harry, pretending to ignore a pair of fourth years who stared at
them so long they nearly fell off the steps as the staircases changed. “Not
unless you’ve got a brilliant idea for someone to run it.”
“Mrs Chumley,” Ginny said promptly. Harry stopped right there on the fifth
floor landing and turned to her. He remembered the letter he’d read and the
fight Gilbert and Gerald had over giving up their magical home. Their mother
had put a positive spin on what was probably a terribly dingy flat in a
smog-ridden city and tried to make her jobless state sound like a mere hiccup.
Harry could never replace their little cottage and he couldn’t suddenly produce
their father, but he could give the family a home and their mother a job.
“You’re brilliant!” Harry cried.
“I know,” Ginny said and Harry leaned down to kiss her. She held a finger up to
his lips to stop him. “There are people watching.” Harry shrugged as he looked
around the various people scattered on the Grand Staircase.
“Let them,” he said simply. “Then they can see that I’m completely in love with
you.” Harry wrapped his arms around Ginny, holding her carefully.
“Really?” she whispered, her eyes lowered to his shoulder.
“Yes,” Harry answered quietly, his hands caressing her back. “Don’t you believe
me?” Ginny didn’t answer him straight away and Harry could feel his heart start
beating erratically as it sank in his chest. Eventually she lifted her gaze to
his.
“I thought maybe you … changed your mind,” she said tentatively. “After …” Her
face went pink as she trailed off. Harry shook his head wordlessly.
“You pulled away,” Ginny said. She sounded incredibly bereft. “You didn’t want
me to touch you.” Harry buried his face in her hair.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry,” he murmured. Harry lifted his head and gazed at
Ginny. She was looking at him solemnly, biting her bottom lip.
“I know I’m not very curvy,” she blurted. Her face was going redder and she
seemed embarrassed to admit it. “I just-”
“It’s got nothing to do with you!” Harry cut her off vehemently. “You’re
wonderful. You look wonderful, you feel wonderful, you smell wonderful, you
taste wonderful.” Ginny giggled nervously. Harry brought one hand up to caress
her cheek. “I … I was just scared. I don’t want to talk about it here. I need
to show you something. Come with me?”
“Okay,” Ginny answered quietly. Harry clasped her hand again and led the way up
the stairs.
When they scrambled through the portrait hole Harry pointedly ignored Neville
and Hermione as they pretended not to watch them from their table near the
entrance. He strode purposefully across the room and up the stairs, Ginny’s
hand in his, an unnatural hush falling over the room. An outbreak of giggling
wafted up the stairs after them.
Harry opened the door to his dorm and ushered Ginny inside. Liberty was still
perched atop his four-poster and she opened one eye as he shut the door with a
click. The owl flew down to Ginny and landed on her shoulder, pecking her ear
gently before fluttering over to Harry and settling once more on his left
shoulder. Harry hissed in pain and Liberty squawked and flew back to the top of
the bed. Harry clutched at his shoulder, gritting his teeth.
“What’s wrong with your shoulder, Harry?” Ginny asked. Harry shook his head,
breathing slowly while the pain diminished.
“Tell you in a minute,” he said shortly, turning to Liberty and holding an arm
out. “Here, girl, I’m sorry. Come back down.” Liberty eyed him warily. Harry
kept eye contact with Liberty but spoke to Ginny. “Can you get some owl treats
from Neville’s drawer, there?”
“Neville’s?” Ginny wrinkled her nose as she ventured further into the room.
Harry gestured in the direction of Neville’s bed.
“The one with all the plants around it,” he said. “He’s got owl treats.”
“Haven’t you got any?” Ginny asked as she rummaged through Neville’s top
drawer.
“No,” Harry said shortly. Ginny didn’t press him further but handed him a few
owl treats. Harry held them out to Liberty, who eventually flew down to his
outstretched arm. Harry stroked her softly for a moment before he carried her
to the window and opened it. “Go hunting, girl.” Liberty hopped onto the
windowsill, stretched her wings and flew off.
Harry watched her fly away, hoping he wasn’t too late to build a relationship
with the little owl. He closed the window with a soft click and turned to see
that Ginny had taken off her Quidditch practice robes and thrown them
carelessly on his trunk. She was sitting on the edge of his bed dressed in the
jersey and a pair of old trousers that looked like they might once have been
Ron’s. Her boots were in a heap on the floor and her stockinged feet tapped an
irregular rhythm on the floor. She watched him silently, expectantly and Harry
felt an unmistakable urge to put off what he’d brought her up here to show her.
He crossed the room swiftly and rummaged in his nightstand for a quill and some
parchment before swiping a bottle of Neville’s ink. He sat gingerly on the bed
next to Ginny.
“Um, will you help me write a letter to Mrs Chumley?” he asked. Ginny raised an
eyebrow and nodded. They both knew that wasn’t why they were there but neither
of them apparently had the courage to point it out.
Harry deliberated over the letter, writing slowly and neatly. He told himself
it was to make a good impression but the irritated skin on his shoulder mocked
him, reminding him he was drawing out the inevitable. He finished the letter,
asking Mrs Chumley to be the resident carer at Grimmauld Place and if she could
start before Christmas.
“I know she’s not magical but … with Kreacher …” Harry trailed off as he folded
the letter and placed it on his nightstand. “If Liberty doesn’t come back I’ll
take that to the Owlery.”
“Why don’t you have any owl treats for her?” Ginny asked suddenly. Harry
shrugged and turned away. They sat in silence for a few moments before Ginny
spoke. “What did you want to talk to me about?”
Harry looked up at her. She was sitting cross-legged at the end of his bed,
leaning against one of the posts and playing idly with a loose thread on his
counterpane. He didn’t know how to begin. The long, awkward silence stretched
in front of them.
“How’s Teddy?” Ginny asked softly.
“He’s great,” Harry said, grateful to her for filling the awkward silence. “He
likes to copy your mum; change his hair and his eyes.”
“You saw mum too?”
“Yeah, I think Andromeda sent for her,” Harry said wryly. “She tried to feed me
cake and when I didn’t eat it, she took me home and tried to feed me treacle
tart.”
“It’s not like you to pass up treacle tart,” Ginny said with a smile.
“Well … I ate it eventually,” Harry confessed. Ginny laughed softly. Harry
continued. “Fleur and George weren’t there. It is very weird to sit at the
table with your parents while they talk about the price of strawberries.”
“Strawberries aren’t in season.”
“Well, exactly,” said Harry. “That’s why they are so expensive and how come the
apples in storage will have to do for the pies tomorrow instead of strawberry
tarts.” Ginny chuckled.
“I didn’t think you’d be back until tomorrow.” Ginny looked back at the stray
thread on the counterpane. “You’re never back on Saturday.”
“What do you mean?”
“When you leave on Friday,” Ginny explained. “I know I’ll have to amuse myself
the next day and … Hermione studies a lot and Luna is, um, trying to seduce
Neville.”
“Is she … ah, succeeding?” Harry asked, not sure he wanted to know the answer
but feeling strangely compelled to ask.
“I don’t think so,” Ginny said with a grin. “He’s very attentive and I think he
genuinely likes her, but his heart isn’t really in it. Luna doesn’t mind, she
says he’s an excellent kisser and Hannah will really appreciate all the
effort.” Harry snorted. Ginny smoothed the counterpane beneath her fingers.
“I’m not here for you very much, am I?” Harry asked her.
“It’s not that …” Ginny sighed and looked towards the window. “Remember before?
When every spare minute we had, and some we didn’t, we used to go somewhere …
somewhere away from Ron and away from Hermione and her study schedule? When all
the spare time in the world was for you and me?”
“And now every spare minute I have is for someone else,” Harry said dully.
“No, that’s not it,” Ginny said with a hint of a smile. “It’s just now that you
aren’t stuck at Hogwarts and I am, I don’t know— I sort of feel trapped. Like I
have to find something to do and Colin’s gone and Demelza’s changed and Audrey
Hamilton-Smythe is just using me to get away from Seamus. I tried to hide from
her the other day — in the Library. Who hides from a Ravenclaw in the Library?”
Harry laughed.
“You don’t like her much?”
“Oh, she irritates me.” Ginny scowled. “Not a single hair out of place, peaches
and cream smooth skin — I bet she uses WonderWitch products — and perfectly
straight teeth. Hermione told me she must be Muggleborn and had ordothiticks.”
“Orthodontics.”
“So I asked Felicia Smart,” Ginny paused and giggled. “Can you imagine being in
Ravenclaw with that last name? I asked her what she thought and she reckons
Audrey has this big, old, metal thing full of wires that she sticks in her
mouth at night. Hermione said it’s a lot less painful to let Malfoy to hit you
with a jinx and have Madam Pomfrey fix it.”
“I’m sorry I haven’t been here for you,” Harry muttered.
“I know, you’ve stuck me with Audrey, the mouth,” Ginny grinned at him, letting
him know she didn’t really mean it. “It’s not just her orthoticks, she talks! She
never stops. So I always make plans so I have an excuse or she would pin me
down all afternoon.”
“And what was today’s excuse?” Harry asked with a grin.
“I was planning to spend the afternoon researching how to make a Howler.”
“And now?”
“And now … well I still really want to send Ron a Howler,” Ginny scowled. “I
bet Bill helped him with that.”
“I can help you if you want,” Harry offered.
“He’s a git,” Ginny burst out. “He doesn’t know anything! He just decided from
miles away to send me a Howler of all things! I bet he hoped it’d turn
up in the Great Hall the way his did when you two flew the car to school! Well,
it wasn’t far off.
“Did you know it turned up in the Entrance Hall? Practically the whole school
heard my brother yelling at me not to break your heart. Did he stop to
think maybe it was my heart that was getting broken?”
Harry winced. Ginny ploughed on.
“So apparently I am insane and deaf and he is going to disown me
if I don’t fix it. Did he stop to think maybe I didn’t think I
was the one who had anything to fix? Oh no, Ron’s on your side.” Ginny’s
sarcasm level was rising. “I don’t know why I’m so surprised, he always has
been. Honestly he would think you’re his brother and I am the evil witch trying
to seduce you away from his family and corrupt you!”
“Not all the time,” Harry ventured when she paused for a breath.
“It’s none of his business anyway,” Ginny said, ignoring Harry. “It’s nobody’s
business and everybody thinks it is their business and they keep
sticking their noses in! Did you know that before we left for Hogwarts Dad gave
me a little talk about waiting for the right time? And then Mum gave me tips on
how to avoid pregnancy. I mean, no offence, but she’s not the most qualified
witch to be giving me that sort of advice!”Harry stifled a snort.
“It’s not funny!”
“Yes it is,” Harry argued. Ginny smiled.
“Maybe a little,” she allowed.
“Look,” Harry took a deep breath, “I’ve been really stupid and I owe you an
apology and an explanation.” Ginny chewed her bottom lip and looked at him
solemnly. Harry didn’t know where to start.
“If you’re regretting it-”
“No!” Harry burst out. “I told you that.” He ran a hand through his hair
wondering how to start.
“I don’t,” Ginny said so softly he nearly missed it. She had turned away and
swung her legs off the side of the bed and was swinging them slowly. Harry
scrambled off the bed and knelt in front of her.
“Ginny,” he said urgently, “I don’t regret being with you.”
“Was it too soon?” Ginny asked. “Do you want to stop? It’s a big change and
maybe we weren’t ready. Well I’m pretty sure I was ready, but it’s okay if you
weren’t ready.” Ginny was blushing and chewing on her bottom lip as if trying
to stop herself from blurting out anything else. Harry shook his head.
“I was ready,” he said. Without thinking about it he pulled his jumper over his
head.
“I thought you wanted to talk first?” Ginny asked, bemused, as he reached for
the bottom of his long sleeved sweatshirt. Harry said nothing and pulled his
shirt over his head.
He closed his eyes kneeling on the cold stone floor in front of her. The cool
air raised goose bumps on his exposed skin. He heard Ginny gasp a little and
then delicate fingers reached out to his shoulder. He shivered, but not from
the cold.
“I didn’t know it was this bad,” Ginny said softly, running her fingers gently
over his shoulder. “It’s no wonder Liberty landing on your shoulder wasn’t
exactly welcome. I thought you’d been using the ointment on it?”
“I can’t reach everywhere,” Harry said softly, forcing himself to remain still
as her fingers trailed down his arm, tracing the red welts.
“You could have asked me,” Ginny said. Harry shook his head.
“I didn’t want you to see them.”
“I don’t care about your scars.” Ginny’s voice was so full of reproach that
Harry couldn’t open his eyes and look at her.
“I didn’t want you to think it was your fault,” Harry whispered.
“How is a rabid Quintaped my fault?” Ginny asked.
“No … they’re worse because …” Harry swallowed heavily. “I shouldn’t have
played Seeker.” He felt Ginny sink down onto the floor in front of him. Small
hands grasped his face, stroking gently.
“Oh, Harry …”
“I didn’t want you to blame yourself,” Harry explained desperately, opening his
eyes to look into hers. “It’s not because I didn’t want you anymore, it’s just
that everyone told me I shouldn’t play and I know they were right; but I wanted
you to have the best chance and that’s why I said it was great that you were
practicing so hard.
“Hermione said you probably thought I was trying to push you away because I
told you that planning for your future was a great idea. I just … I didn’t mean
that you had to plan it because I didn’t want to be a part of it. I just
know how much you want this and I know your mum thinks it’s not really
important, but it is and I just want to be supportive and-”
“Harry-”
“It’s not because I don’t want you any more,” Harry continued, ignoring her
interruption and grasping her hands in his, “because I do. In fact I probably
want you more than is reasonably healthy. Ron should be sending me
Howlers! He would if he knew what was going through my head right now. But I
couldn’t ask you to help me with the ointment because then you’d see and then
you’d know and I didn’t want you to blame yourself-”
“I did anyway,” Ginny interrupted forcefully. “You looked dreadful after the
game and Mum was chewing my ear off about it. I felt so guilty. Then when you
didn’t want me to touch you and you wouldn’t let me even see your arm … I
thought you blamed me.”
“No, I didn’t blame you!”
“Then I heard that idiot McLaggen — how can a family have more than one git
that foul?” Ginny scowled.
“He was talking out his arse,” Harry grumbled.
“I know,” Ginny sighed. “Hermione tried to talk to me about it but …” She
trailed off and shrugged.
“With me being a stupid git, what were you supposed to think?” Harry asked
softly. He reached up and cupped her cheek. “I should have trusted you. I’m
sorry.”
“Yeah,” Ginny whispered. She stared at him for a moment, “me too.”
Harry could stand it no longer. He pulled her face towards him and pressed a
kiss to her lips. She responded immediately, wrapping her arms around his neck
and shuffling towards him so that she was practically sitting in his lap. Her
soft lips moved under his as he slid his fingers into her hair. Ginny slid her
arms down his back and Harry trailed soft, wet kisses down her neck. One hand
strayed to her belly and slid easily under her jersey. As he touched Ginny’s
stomach it rumbled loudly and Harry smiled into her neck.
“Um … you squashed my breakfast,” Ginny said.
“Wanna go to the kitchens?” Harry asked her, his hand splayed across her
stomach. “And after that, can we go for a walk, if you like. I’ve got lots of
spare minutes today and I want to spend them all with you.”
“I’d like that,” Ginny replied softly.