8.
Finding Family
It was quite some time
before Harry raised his head and decided he had better get moving. He was
surprised that no one had run after him but he wasn’t about to bemoan his
fortune. As he idly wandered along the secret passage which he knew would take
him to a door near the greenhouses, as long as it hadn’t been blocked or
otherwise blown apart during the battle, Harry decided that he needed to return
the Elder Wand to Dumbledore’s tomb. He wondered if he could do that without
being seen but soon cursed his own idiocy, his Invisibility Cloak was in his
pouch along with practically everything else he currently owned, which wasn’t
much; his razor (which he most definitely used), three wands, a shard of a
mirror, the Marauder’s map, a broken Snitch, a letter from his mother, a baby
photo, his Gringotts key and his cloak. As he reached the door at the other end of
the passage Harry put the cloak on and slipped outside.
As he passed the
greenhouses Harry noticed that Neville had roped a number of Gryffindors in to helping him continue to fix them up.
Seamus and Dean were attempting to repair a number of terracotta pots while
Lavender, who was still covered in bandages, was watching Parvati
levitate overturned tables. Dennis Creevey was
sitting in the corner of one greenhouse idly flicking ear muffs back onto a row
of hooks in the wall. He looked drawn and pale with circles under his eyes and Harry’s heart clenched as it was filled with the sorrow of
Colin’s loss. Dennis must have come back for the memorial,
he would have been evacuated as a fourth year. Alicia Spinnet,
Angelina Johnson, Katie Bell and Oliver Wood were helping Neville repair the
panes of glass in the roof. Assorted sixth years were repotting plants in an
already repaired section of the greenhouse.
Well, that explained
the empty Common Room. Harry wandered out onto the grounds and dodging various
students, families and teachers made his way to the tomb by the lake. The
immediate area was deserted, the work to rebuild being carried on in other
parts of the castle grounds. As he walked Harry drew the Elder Wand from the
pouch around his neck stopping short a scant metre or
two from the white tomb. Harry felt a
surge of anger as he looked at the devastation that Voldemort
had wrought on the final resting place of his mentor. He approached the tomb
with trepidation, knowing what he would see inside. It didn’t make it any
easier to approach Dumbledore’s body, reach out and place the wand back on the
chest of the body.
“Goodbye, sir,” Harry
whispered into the stillness. “Thank you for believing in me and trusting in
me. I hope I never let you down.” And Harry felt, rather than heard, a voice
whisper on the wind,
“You could never let
me down, goodbye Harry Potter.” Harry retreated from the tomb, tears glistening
in his eyes and cast the strongest spells and charms he could think of to
repair and reseal the tomb.
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As Harry sat hidden in
the shadows of a large bush at sunset, gazing across the lake and skipping
stones across the top of the water he felt more at peace than he had done for
hours. He twirled the hawthorn wand in his hand while he contemplated the
events of the last few hours. He relished the opportunity to sit and think
without myriad things to claim his attention. A voice suddenly broke his quiet
contemplation.
“The whole castle’s
looking for you, Potter,” Draco Malfoy spoke without
malice. “Weasley and Granger are going mental and his mother’s practically lost
it.” Harry looked down at the wand in his hand and mutely held it out to Malfoy who took it hesitantly.
“The Weaselette’s nearly hysterical,” Malfoy
continued, “keeps ranting and raving about losing you. Your whole family’s gone
nuts, Potter.” Harry stared at Malfoy in shock.
“I don’t have any
family, Malfoy,” Harry rasped, his voice croaky from
disuse. “Better go back to your mother before she flips as well.” Malfoy shook his head.
“You don’t get it, do
you Potter? That family doesn’t care that you don’t share their genes. You are
one of them as surely as if you were born in that hovel.” Harry growled. Malfoy continued,
“Weasel’s dad has gone
and organized search parties to scour the castle and told them he’ll not lose
another one of his boys. There’s frantic redheads everywhere you turn.
I don’t reckon my own mother has ever shown as much concern for the fruit of
her loins as that woman is showing for you. Anyone would think she birthed you
herself. If you think you’ve got no family you are more touched in the head
than Goyle,” he finished. Malfoy
shook his head and turned to walk away.
“You’re wrong, you
know.”
“Come off it Potter,
you must have heard them when they thought you were dead!”
“No,
not about the Weasleys,” Harry paused, “about your
mother.”
“What would you know
about my mother, Potter?” Malfoy spat.
“Your mother betrayed Voldemort for you. He sent her to check that I was dead,”
Harry stood and faced Malfoy. “And she told him I was
because when she asked, I told her you were alive. She knew that the only way
to get into the castle, to get to you,
was to convince Voldemort I was dead so that he’d
lead them back triumphantly and tell them to surrender instead of just
destroying the castle and everyone in it, including you.
“Tom Riddle never knew
his mother. He never knew his mother loved him so he didn’t understand the
depth of a mother’s love,” Harry had a sudden thought. “I reckon that’s why he
and your Auntie Bellatrix got along so well. She
didn’t give much thought to a mother’s love either or she never would have
taken on Mrs Weasley after trying to throw a killing
curse at her daughter.
“My mother’s love for
me saved me nearly seventeen years ago. Your mother’s love for you helped save
you and everyone else two days ago. Don’t ever think she wouldn’t lay down her
life for you, because she would, in a heartbeat.” And with sudden clarity Harry
heard Bill telling him exactly the same thing.
Harry noticed the
stars that were beginning to twinkle on the dusky horizon and remembered Mrs Weasley’s fear at their late
arrival the night before. Glancing at his watch he noted the time meant that
dinner was about to get underway in the Great Hall when he noticed some
scratches along one side of the face. He mentally shrugged, oh well at least
they matched the dents on the back.
“-traditional to give a wizard a watch when he
comes of age…it was my brother Fabian’s…it’s a bit dented on the back…”
Harry suddenly took
off in the direction of the castle, sprinting towards the great oak door. As he
skidded to a stop at the top of the marble steps, breathing hard, Harry heard a
commotion coming from inside and if he wasn’t mistaken it was being caused by
some Weasleys. He pushed the door open and came face
to face with a raised wand.
Because he was
breathing hard from running Harry managed to hide the fact that his heart began
to thump heavily in his chest and his breathing quickened. He stood petrified,
staring down the business end of a wand, unable to move.
‘What is happening to
me?’ he thought wildly. He stood there holding his breath, his pulse racing,
eyes fixed on the wand. Dimly, as if from far away he heard voices calling his
name. The wand moved and Harry breathed. Slowly the rest of the Entrance Hall
came into focus. Hermione was there, peering at him concernedly. Had she seen
him freeze, no, panic. He’d panicked, had she seen that?
“You people have got to stop pointing wands at me,” he
puffed, pushing down the anxiety that threatened to overwhelm him.
“Stop being a git then! Where on earth have you been?” retorted Ron.
Harry flinched and shrank back as Ron gave off a very uncanny impression of his
mother, only taller. In fact now that Harry thought about it Ron seemed about
twice as big as he usually did. “We’ve
been looking for you for hours! You can’t just take off like that! How would we
know if something had happened to you?
Oh we probably wouldn’t, would we? Not until someone brings your body
back!” Bill stepped forward, putting his hand on Ron’s shoulder which seemed to
shrink him back to normal size.
“That’s enough Ron,”
he said softly. “Harry, are you alright?” Harry nodded mutely all too aware of
his own palpitating fear that seemed to throb between them like a heartbeat.
“Ron’s just a bit
worried about where you’d got to. No one is going to hurt you Harry,” Bill
murmured. He had clearly not managed to fool Bill. “Mum’s a bit frantic but if
you come and let her feed you she’ll be right.” Harry found his voice.
“Could you check
Dumbledore’s tomb when you get a chance, please Bill? I repaired it and sealed
it with the strongest charms I know but they are still pretty basic. I’m not sure I know enough about sealing
tombs and things.” Bill nodded and Harry took a few deep breaths and fought to
control his emotions. Shoving his hands into his pockets, determined to hide
the fact that they were shaking, Harry looked around to see who else was in the
Entrance Hall.
It looked as though
Charlie was the one who’d been brandishing a wand as his still dangled loosely
from his hand while he examined Harry critically. Ron had crossed his arms over
his chest and was staring defiantly at the floor. Hermione was examining Harry
with a very calculating gaze.
“So what’s been going
on here, then?” he asked.
“Ron had a slight
problem with you running off,” said Charlie. “It’s been making him a bit
irrational.”
“I think the events of
the past few days are catching up with all of us,” came
Mr Weasley’s voice from the
shadows. Harry started, he hadn’t seen the Weasley
patriarch on his first scan of the Entrance Hall.
“I’m sorry,” Harry
said quietly, running a hand through his hair. The shaking had abated and he
was feeling more himself again. “I just needed to get away. I needed some time
to think.”
“Not to worry Harry,
not to worry,” Mr Weasley said. “Let’s get inside and
let everyone know we found you.”
“I really am sorry,”
said Harry again, staring at the top of Ron’s head, willing him to look up.
“Things have been making me a bit, er, jumpy today.”
“Quite alright Harry,
quite alright,” said Mr Weasley. “Now how about we go
in and call off the search. If we don’t get you in there soon Molly will be out
here and I really don’t think we need a repeat of last night on top of
everything else.”
Mr Weasley turned and led the way into the Great
Hall. There was food on the table but the occupants at one end of the
Gryffindor table were not eating it at all. George was staring idly at the
table, gouging a small hole it in it with the point of a knife. Mrs Weasley was staring at the fireplace as if waiting for
someone to Floo in, Fleur was drumming her fingers on
the table, staring fixedly at the water jug and Ginny had drawn her knees up
and wrapped her arms around them, all of them ignoring the food Percy was
piling onto their plates.
Ron ambled up to them,
sat heavily in a chair and started piling his own plate high. His arrival
seemed to rouse the other occupants.
“Did you find him,
Ron,” his mother demanded.
“Well, he turned up
eventually, yes,” Ron said sullenly. Mrs Weasley
shrieked and jumped up.
“Well why didn’t you
say so!” she demanded and she hurried around the table, her eyes seeking Harry’s as he stood behind Bill. “Are you alright? Where
have you been? If you keep disappearing like that you’ll give us all heart
attacks!” She seized his face, searching his eyes. Harry fought the urge to
pull away. Eventually she released him and pushed him into the chair next to
Ginny.
The tension hung over
them like a thick blanket as they ate. No one spoke, the hum of other occupants
of the room swarmed around them like a low buzz. Harry pushed his food around
his plate and suddenly, unable to stand it any longer, he cleared his throat.
“I’m sorry I ran off
this afternoon,” he began. “I just needed some time to think.” Ron’s hands
started shaking and he dropped his knife. He wouldn’t look Harry in the eye.
Hermione’s eyes darted between the two of them; she was studying them as if
trying to figure out a giant puzzle.
“I-I’m fine now,”
Harry finished.
“Well don’t go
disappearing again,” Ron said quietly. “I can’t go through that again. I was
scared for you Harry.” He finally looked up at Harry. There was pain radiating
from him. “When you took off I couldn’t help it, I thought you weren’t going to
come back this time or that something might happen to you. I got so angry that
you might be gone. I couldn’t bear it if you didn’t come back.” Hermione
sniffed.
“It’s okay,” said
Harry, “I’m not going anywhere. I’m here to stay; you can’t get rid of me you
know. You guys are my family.”
“Good,” said Ron and
he surreptitiously wiped his face with his sleeve as he said it. “Now I think
it’s time for pudding.”
Harry turned to look
at Ginny. She was playing with her food, her face hidden by a curtain of hair.
Harry reached over, putting his hand on hers and he felt her suddenly turn her
hand over and grab his tightly. He left his hand resting gently in hers for the
rest of the meal.